It's not easy trying to prevent unexpected events in your personal life. My tears are too shallow, even when I watched something heart breaking. I literally get affected by it and get's flash back on any of the horrible things that had happened to me in the past. I've been through tough roads so many times, but chose to never let my emotions drain me for too long. 

Learning to fight the right coping mechanisms to make the most of my struggles, is not easy. It takes maturity and realisation to fight the weak side of me. 

- iannmarie

When you have self-control, you can forgive easily. But when you are dealing with a negative experience; the process of stepping back away from too much drama involves repetitive and passive focus on one's negative experiences. 

I have to admit, my trauma about Trust is not easy to get it back. When you did something really really bad to me, and I was the one treated you everything to the fullest that I all have. Then don't ever think I will forgive you just like that. 

Even when the relationship broke unexpectedly because you were too immature to deal with our current situation. Don't expect me to just forgive you and talk to you again. You may know what I was before, but I have one last card that you no nothing about. 

I may still be with you in the most cruel times you've done to me, but don't expect me to Trust you. Another strike and you are out. 

- iannmarie

We all want to feel close and desired by our partners, and when that doesn't happen, we may become concerned. However, feeling unwanted in a relationship is extremely common now days. 

I made huge mistake in the past. And this time, there's no second chance. 

- iannmarie

We are all work in progress. No one but yourself to impress. Move at your own pace, no stress. Your life, your definition of success. However, if along the way a misstep challenges your destiny how would you know which one to change? along the way, so many bumpy roads, so many storms to tackle, so many obstacles to amend or redo. 

We are all given one life in a lifetime.  I don't have any other things to change besides my "Height" ... HAHA. I'm just damn short man. 

- iannmarie

I trust too much and listen to my heart way too much also. I don't realize things that I'm in a wrong situation with a wrong person/people/crowd, because I am naïve and self destructed by my appearance on how I present to the public. The image I wanted people to know about me that I'm doing the right thing for myself, that I'm perfect in any way. When it fact, I was wrong, I would remove that mindset and I should not force myself to impress others. 

- iannmarie 

A soul mate is the person who doesn't have all the perfect qualities of a man. When I see the love pass his soul and that's what makes me weak. I have had my fair share of assumptions in my past relationships. You never really know until you both get tested when the time comes. Is he that person who once was when you first met. 

I can say that I found my last soul mate and I intend to stop there. If by any chance the second time he looses the grip on reality. I will end the soul searching right there. I don't need you to prove it to me, YOU need to prove it to yourself. 

- iannmarie 

Tough question really. Putting other people in the position of keeping your secrets about questionable acts I've committed requires that I admit the truth about myself, and I feel that I can trust the person with my full confidence. With regard to that petty theft, I could rationalize the situation as an unintentional mistake that would require more effort to resolve than is probably worth it, or I could just live with my now somewhat tarnished image of myself as an honest person. If that is indeed the path I would take. 

As I engaged with people who I became friends with for so long. I still keep a distance not so open about my personal life. Even if I call you my "Best Friend", I still preserved a certain pages of myself Unless a tell all book I should share, which in that case is what I am doing now. I would rather put it all on my blog than to share with people. 

I'm not an open book, but I am comfortable being this way. 

- iannmarie

For me there's an easy-to-articulate, hard-to-implement best practice when it comes to how to teach yourself to be happy. In effect, even when I do little things to make other people happy can greatly improve my happiness. 

I usually take into consideration on their approach. If I sense the vibes of that person is contented and happy, it brings out the best in me. We connected by sharing great and fun things together. We can talk all day and still laugh out silly things out of nowhere. 

I find that my happiness comes out whomever I am with and what situation I am in. But I never lose hope in all simple things. I became cheerful when achieving the most unexpected opportunities. It's true I kept so much pain in the past right after my daughter was born. Being involved with the kind a crowd and even in a relationship that I thought it's the right one for me. I think of my own happiness not even understanding if the other person feels the same way. 

We all have that moment, when we are so focused on making ourselves happy and not realizing if the people are you is seeing the same vision as you. However, I am who I am now. I deal life as it comes, battle so many countless storms on my own. Yet, I have survived and keep moving on. 

- iannmarie

In the beginning. When I used to live in the Philippines. I really enjoy listening to Filipino song's, any genre, but most especially love songs. So when I first arrived in Brisbane, Australia. It kind of changed to R&B mix, Mash Ups,  Hip Hop, Pop and Dance mega hits. Although I still listen to love songs, but not as much as I used to. It just brings back heartache and I don't need to feel the past again through old school music.

- iannmarie

I don't think anyone never experienced a bad struggle in life. We all do, We are all not perfect. 

My life however, is like an endless roller coaster. It keeps circling around, looping from side to side, then goes up and down. Regardless of the experiences and struggles, I forgave myself of being too soft. Too trusting and too stupid to fall so easily. 

- iannmarie